Today, Miss Sim told us to reconsider about taking HMT. She recommended a few of our students to drop HMT. In the end, if those who are recommended to drop, they drop, then the HMT class will be like so little people =.= Miss Sim told me that for my case, it would be like one worm hanging on a string. It's either I make the effort to crawl all the up, all I just simply lose my grip and fall down. Either one, but neither one seems to be my choice.

I expected things like this to happen. But I just didn't realise that I was able to fool my days through class. And as time goes by, 2 years have pass, and it's time to face reality that my chinese is not up to the standard of HMT.

I clearly remember how my grades for HMT in pri sch used to be. It was always borderline pass or borderline fail. I told myself, fucking get over PSLE and never take HMT again in secondary sch. However, due to my excellent score in PSLE, my father wants me to go to Swiss Cottage Secondary. So in order to enter Riverside, I was force to take HMT. It wasn't what I wanted, but still, I need this school.

So yea, I started off with Miss Sim. I remember how scary she was during the first year. Her monster training was really too much :x But coming to think of it, secondary HMT standard ain't the same :x It's much more demanding than expected. And now, I face the split road to choose between express MT or HMT.

So, the very good boy, me, decided to discuss this with my parents.

I talked to my mama about it. And all she said was how lazy I was by not studying. Everyday go home playplayplay non-stop. Come home first thing play computer. Then she went on to say how she achieve such a good standard of MT. She said she read newspaper everytime, look up the dictionary for words which she couldn't read or understand. But the main thing is, she ain't understanding what I'm facing. Syallbus back in 1970s and 80s ain't the same for 21st century. Many things have changed. She just couldn't understand. I don't see why she thinks that it is so easy to get good grades _l_

Thenn I talked to my papa about a show during English lesson today. The National Treasure. I told him I wanted to watch that show and he said that it was boardcast on TV many many times. And whenever he ask me to come out of my room and watch these shows, I simply rejected him and went back to my room to play computer games. He then added that I always sms other people using phone and that the messages are blowing up. Hello?! You freaking got me a student plan with unlimited sms because you knew it will blow up =.= Since it's unlimited and you no need to pay, why bother how many freaking millions of messages I have?! Even if I have 123124356876423521462758271468752736475284675 messages, IT'S FREE. THE POINT IS, IT'S F.R.E.E! YOU UNDERSTAND?! _l_ So my papa scolded me for having so many messages. So I used MSN instead, good boy, ain't I? But, this wasn't enough for him =.= HE SAYS THAT BY CHATTING ONLINE IS THE REASON FOR MY GRADES. I sms, he not happy, I MSN he also not happy. THEN HOW YOU WANT ME TO CHAT?! YOU TELL ME LAH! FUCK YEA?! NO ANSWER?! SHUTUP MAN! _l_

Ugh, conclusion : I'M FUCKING STAYING IN HMT TO PROVE THAT BY TALKING ON MSN AND SMS-ING, I STILL CAN GET A FUCKING A1 BACK FOR HMT! JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE _l_ I hope I'm not making the wrong decision by staying just because of a moment of anger. And, I seriously have no confidence of getting A1.

Okay, I need to think.