CCA was a disappointment.

Firstly was the Home Nursing test today which really really really makes me not interested in Home Nursing. Mr Low still asked me whether I want to go for the course. I rejected him just like how I rejected Mdm Emilia for nominating me to be the student cousellor. Let's sum up all the stuffs that I have rejected :

1. Fancy Drill
2. NDP
3. NDD
4. BGI representatives
5. Student cousellor
6. Home Nursing course.

I'm really sorry to have rejected all these posts which I could be in. Okay, to whoever thinks I'm not up to standard for any of these things above, jolly well keep your comments to yourself. Thankyouverymuch :D I guess I'm pure lazy.

I really have to admit, recently too much stuffs are happening. My grandfather's death, throwing of 7 projects at one go, working with Weisheng somemore ._. Wait, I want to clarify something. Yes, weisheng, I know you want good marks, but think for all of us, it is not that we do not want to work, it is just that we cannot work up to your standard. You jolly well knew that we did not want to perform for the second time for music, but you insisted on it. I can totally understand if you hate us for being such slackers and not wanting to achieve more. I'm sorry but sometimes, your perfectionist-ism is really overwhelming for me.

Next is the Common Test results. Common Test results are really disappointing. I didn't expect myself to fail English and History. I seriously studied like whatthefuck for History and what? I failed my History. English was a rather average paper, I wasn't expecting myself to fail it. Physics is another one. 14/20. Ain't an A1, not good enough. I mean, that paper was not that hard afterall, a 15/20 is very easy to score, but, I just didn't get it. I mean, seriously. Everyone is coming early in the morning to copy homework from everyone. I always do my homework like a dog and guess what? They ALWAYS scored higher than me. What kind of freaking logic is this? I just cannot accept the fact that I'm never able to excel while the others can.

Okay, things are getting too far. Back to topic, CCA. Second thing disappointing was the footdrill preformance of my squad. It really made me pissed off to the max and even Jiaqi came and asked me whether I was alright. Caring senior <3 LOL. I'm just pissed lah, I don't get it, next year we are taking over the corp and no one is serious about footdrill. Jason was a disappointment. He, being a member of a competition team, could talk and talk and talk in a sqaud. Whatthefuck is this man? =.= Whenever I reprimand him, he gives me his dog face. Fine =.= I was thinking of improving the sec 2s' footdrill and no one supports the idea. We always thought of ways to improve our batch, but did we ever implement it? NEVER, not even once.

People are changing, so am I. It is just whether people change for the good, or you change for the good. The problem is, I'm not changing for the good, but for the worse, and I'm changing real fast. I'm starting to slack and slack and slack. How am I going to get good marks for EOY if I continue slacking? I really wish to drop the idea of getting in a double pure science stream and consider going into a combined science stream just like my brother. Who knows, I might excel?

Okay, I'm done blabbering my nonsense. One last note : Xiaoyun is cool. That's it, bye.





I seriously need to stop slacking and buck up.