Okay, I'm finally here to post. I guess most of you know what has happened to me. Yea, you were right, my grandfather passed away.

He passed away on Monday, 5 July 2010. He lived to a ripe old age of 82 and will always be remember by loved ones.

Monday.
I rushed to he hospital as soon as I received a call from my father. I had no idea what happen, but I knew something was wrong. By the time I reached the ward, he had closed his eyes. I called him, again and again. But his eyes, were still closed. I knew, at that instance, I had lost him, forever. Not to mention, everyone cried. It was the first time I saw my father cry. I knew it hurt deep inside, but he just choose to drop that few tears and appear strong. My mother told me my grandfather heard me when I called him cause his heart suddenly beat again.

I was crying and was in a super bad mood afterwards. Prepared a funeral and it was the first day. We stay till very late and almost slept at 12am. That explains why I was so sleepy the next day. I'm very sorry to those whom I have showed black faces and threw temper at them.

Tuesday.
It was a ordinary school day and I went over to my Ah Gong there after school to do some stuffs. The same cycle repeats till thursday.

Yesterday.
I did not attend school due to the reason that I have to send my grandfather off. We looked at him for once more before we close the casket. I cannot believe I did not cry when they close the casket. But still, I was feeling sad. It was till when we started to chant as a family, that I started to tear like nobody's business. We brought his body to Mandai Crematorium and we sent him off to his last journey. Everyone was crying when we saw my grandfather for the very last chance. I was literally shouting his name, just like anyone else. I knew he is gone, but, stays in my heart. Ah Gong, don't worry, we will all be fine, leave peacefully.

Today.
Went back to Mandai Crematorium to collect his ashes today. We placed his ashes with my Ah Ma, whom I have never seen before, that died of cancer, 30 years ago. I guess, I would really just have to accept the fact that his gone. I'll never get to see him again.


Okay, I guess I have roughly updated about everyday which I last spent my moments with my grandfather. Tomorrow will be his 头七 and I don't know what will happen. LOL.

To Joey. Stay strong girl. Don't worry, he's going to be fine. Feel free to approach me if you need help, I'm always here for you :D

Okay, updated everything. Bye.





You will always live in my heart.